giving myself permission to give in to the process of recovery

I’ve been considering blogging for a while now, but I haven’t felt like I’ve all that much to say. I’m not sure I’ve actually written this so explicitly before, but I actually tend to avoid blogging when things aren’t going so well in my world; if I’m engaging in eating disordered behaviours or whatever – who am I to be sitting here dishing out advice when things aren’t going great on my end? I feel pretty hypocritical even just considering it. So now you know – if I haven’t blogged in a while, it might be a sign that things aren’t good. It might also be a sign that things are great and I’m off living my life without a lot of time to focus on my blog or my eating disorder.

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For When the Battle Seems Never-Ending.

Long time, no blog. I’ve had lots of ideas floating around in my mind about things I’ve wanted to write about, but I haven’t been able to string the words together quite as I’ve wanted to. I figured though, that I may as well give it a crack. This blog post is something I’ve been thinking about recently, something I’ve needed to write for myself and be reminded of, and something I’ve wanted to write for those who may also be at a crossroads similar to my own. So here we have it – a blog about the overwhelming nature of recovery from an eating disorder. Thanks for reading, pals. X

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Eating Disorders Serve a Purpose.

I think we all know it by now; but eating disorders aren’t just about food or weight or body image. In fact, eating disorders are a pretty clever way for the body to react to a stressful situation. It is a coping mechanism –  something occurs that the mind and body both cannot cope with – and so it finds a way to. It finds a way to survive. And the eating disorder is how it does. The irony is that the eating disorder keeps the person alive and slowly kills them at the same time. That’s the sad reality.

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Pro-ED Websites

… actually exist. Did you know that? If you’ve read this blog post that I wrote back in Feb for Melinda Tankard Reist, you probably did.If you haven’t, please do! The more who know about this sort of thing going on, the better.

‘Pro-ana’, as it is affectionately called by many stuck in the eating disordered world is simply the promotion of Anorexia Nervosa as a lifestyle choice. You can therefore make a fair assumption of what ‘pro-mia’ means. Basically, there are hundreds of websites / communities within Live Journal / pages on Facebook etc where girls and guys (generally teenagers, but often children and adults also) encourage unhealthy weight loss behaviours, share “tips & tricks” in regards to purging, restricting and hiding weight loss, amongst other things. Continue reading